I Don't Want To Be

Gavin Degraw Lyrics

I Don't Want To Be Lyrics


I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anything other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situtaion-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be
Anything other that what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be

Absail!!!

PIctures of Rope Access... courtesy of Saharil.... When I saw the pictures it gave a completely different meaning to rope access.. I always tot its a job cleaning windows of high rise building!! I didnt realize its so varied.. from (ahem) cleaning windows, to building an oil rigging thingy to doing huge photowalls atop the highest building in HK!! Its such a high risked job.. no wonder YOU get paid a bomb IS!!! Kudos!!

Sentosa Lunch

Hmmmm.. this yesterday... me and Mel went to Sentosa to have lunch... well.. time of the month so not fasting and must find a bloody secluded area to eat!!! It was worth the trip.. high tide, beautiful view and great company! Sigh... we are so pathetic.. only have each other for company... day in day out!! Yesterday was nice with Fadz finally coming out to meet us... the food at Amrosia was pretty decent too! Mel actually can be bothered to walk to the car to take my ibook so Fadz can see some pics! She actually smsed both of us saying men whistled at her!!!! See la.. itu pun shiok!! ahahahhahaha.. padahal kat Arab St takde pompuan jambu!! Lembu pakai skirt pun diorang whistled!!! Mel... no offence!!! I take lorry drivers anytime!!!
Some pics of the boys at Thumper and a self taken pic of myself...

Reminiscing - Spain!!

Oh.. my place for shopping!! Barcelona!! Crazzzeeeeeee.. i came back with 3 bags of clothes and 12 pairs of shoes.....

Travel Pix

Pictures of me in Disney & Alcatraz!

My sad... dark ballad

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

Reminiscing - Mexico & NZ

Here's Me in Mexico & New Zealand.. The Maori's culture is totally amazing.. the Hangi is also a memorable experience.. me shopping at Canterbury like crazy!!! Mexico.. not much.. the food is fantastic.. (for those you've never been there?? Imagine JB speaking Spanish!)

Old Old Old Photos

Waaaahh Its Friday Finally!! Been sick the whole week! Had food poisoning on Monday & Tuesday and now down with flu and cough! Luckily now I've got my voice back... this week passed like a blur though.. orrr maybe I am that Blur!! Anywayz, more pictures I managed to download! Me on my 4th Birthday with Cik Ija (check out the hair!), Cik Midah & Cik Nani on the way to Cik Imah's place during the Nikah (heehhe.. the hair and Cik Nani sooooo skinny!!), Mama & Me @ a year old, and Cik Imah & Cik Nani Wedding PIc..Faiz & Faris Pic taken on Wed morning while they were sleeping...

Let Me Love You - Mario

Hmmmm... my fave song of the moment...

Let Me Love You

Mmmm ..... Mmmmm.... Yeah....Mmmmm....Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Mmmm...Yeah....Mmmm..... Yeah, Yeah

[Verse 1:]

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you,you are)

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

[Verse 2:]

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

[Bridge:]

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

[repeat til it ends (about 3 times)]

[Mario (talking):]
Let me love you that's all you need baby

Reminiscing- London & Paris

Here's me in london & Paris... Camberwell Market & The Eiffel Tower.. The other pic is at the St James..
took the Eurostar to Paris..

Another Weekend Passed...

Went to United Square to let Faris have a feel on the drum and he was so excited. The instructor was really nice but told us not to waste our money just yet. Its better to enrol him in when he's about 4 as he'll be able to take instruction then.

To think that he was only taught 2 notes 'H' & 'B' and when the instructor told him to hit both simultaneously, he hits evverything!!!! The fencing school was good too $150 for 4 sessions as i thought its a good outlet to let out his energy. So everything next year will be packed in for him! aahahah.. see I'm the one who's excited.. maybe i should take it up as well.

After that we went to JB for my usual shopping and i saw a missed call from Jerome's mobile.. Mark thanking me for all the arrangemnents on Fri... aftyer that we went to Larkin where i bought everything i saw! Rojak Asma, Pari Bakar, Ikan Keli Berlado, Satay Bakar, Mee Soto, Laksa Penang, Getas2, Kueh Keria, Siput Lemak, Udang Sambal, Paru Sambal, Ghoori Lemak & Air Khatira. Fai bought Penang Laksa again & some other kueh.. wah.... buka besar kita!!!

Old friends...

Its been a long an really quick week! Thursday we had the La Prom and the celebrities, socialites, models, media people came.. i just realized how fake people are.. they go because they want to be seen! Nothing more...but the best part Joanne was there!! It was really good to see her after almost a year!! She said there's no way she could stay too long in Melbourne. I didnt ask about Adrian though... anyway all of us thought before "no man who looks like him could ever be straight!" Lynnette was there and i told her saw her at Stomp! but she was too busy being Madame Butterfly as usual.

Friday went even quicker! After Mark & Sam dropped by with the decor & signage, I ran off to Isetan Scotts looking for ribbons.. as i walked along chatting with Mel on my mobile, my eyes drifted to my left at MacDonalds.. just kepo to see any tak tau malu Malays eating or not and I thought my eyes were deceiving me... I thought i saw Adrian Toncic!!! The guy i had been googling for weeks with no results!! Man.... he was my childhood sweetheart.. the boy who made my heart thumped so I am excited to go to school... Pei Tong Primary School! ahhahahahah..I had been in the same class with him when he started in P4.. *ahem* I was usually the vivacious one that everyone wanted to be around so it was no surprise we started to be the best of buddies! My new found hormones had other ideas though! Sigh... i still remember writing him that stupid love letter after watching 'Secret Admirer' a dozen times!! Gosh.. I feel so silly now thinking about it... to think he had no idea it was me then. After receiving that letter he got the cheek to call me and excitedly told me about it.. what do you expect from a P6 kid right!

So we lost touch and i'd bump into him occasionally in the last 15 years (hmmm 3 times to be exact). So it was so exciting to talk as if the 15 years never passed! He lives in Balikpapan now in Kalimantan taking over his Dad's business and he got married last year and expecting a boy some time next year... he converted he says cuz he married a Muslim Indonesian.. then my next question stumped him.. uurrrgghhh you're Muslim & you're eating NOW?? ahahahahahaha. He said his parents sold the Celemti house and they have an apartment at UE2 but his parents are now in Kalimantan and Diana is in Canada studying Phycology!

We sat there talking for half an hour about school and what we did and said he was asking his Police frens about me back in 1999 to 2001 but could not get my number! To think he frequented CHIJMES then. He's going back to Balikpapan this Sunday but with promises to catch up once he gets back in in November.

Wow....... seriously!! ALL my old frens are coming back into my life!!! Anyway the Wedding Dinner ended really late and I got a call from Jerome at 11pm that the last course is being served and they'll be there in about half hour. Everyone was there... Mark, Jerome, Yahya, Ezad, Jaspal, Ghani, Nelson (but of course.. he's the groom) hmmmm somehow Sam wasnt there though.. anyway, i am just amazed at how 6 years passed unnoticed.. all of them said I look good, i never changed! Ya right.... if only they know what lies underneath! ahhahahahahaha

Oh Rose came too and accompanied me throughout the entire event... she's bored cuz her buddy is off in London and she just came out of this relationship with a German guy who wasnt willing to convert...sigh....

Went over to Geylang today to change Faiz baju kurung cuz the one i bought was a tad small. The Kakak selling the baju actually asked if ' Ni anak orang putih eh??" leeer.. bila masa aku kahwin dengan Mat Salleh.. Mat Selit adalah! Then after walking everywhere, I bought stuff for buka ( 2 packets Nasi Briyani Daging, 4 pieces of Ayam Percik, kueh bingka Ubi gandos style, agar2, kueh jongkong, mee hoon goreng & air katira 2 packet, lauk for Sahur ( 2 pieces of Pais Sotong POWER, sambal goreng $2, Babat Lemak $2, Sotong Hitam $4 & Lemak Pucuk Paku $3)... woooii.. if this continues on.. I'll never lose weight like i intended.. nak kena suruh mak alter all my baju kebaya ni!

I guess thats all for today... Anyway I am hoping that that music shop at United Square still have that drumming lesson for 3 year olds... it'll be fun for Faris to sign up.. so far he really drumming mama's furniture! Off to JB tomorrow to buy loads of diapers, milk, cereal and other neccesities! hmmmph..